don't you see my tears..

abandonedxdream @ 2004-08-01T20:45:00

2004-08-02T00:43:33Z

new journal

add me<3 and i'll add you *MuAh*

if anyone wants to do a layout for me comment PLEASE!!<3

thnx

yOu WeRe ThE fIrSt OnE tO CrUmBlE aNd BrEaK..

2004-08-01T23:57:21Z

Friday-went to camp. got ready then went to Kosty's for the night!! we went to the circus thing. it was funny. i saw my cousin Tanisha, who i haven't seen since like March. then i saw my buddy Ryan Sheil!! ahh i miss him! i also saw Ava, Whitney, Ian D (he wasn't in it) and other people! it was alright. after that i gave this guy directions :-) lol a white girl knows her way around the north end of Middletown hehe i'm good. after that hung out at Neil's becuase Kristen and Diana (her sister) were fighting and stuff so we huing out there. ate pizza then went up to Kosty's with Chris C. and hung out then went to Chris's at like 10. came home watched 'Love & Basketball'- me and Kosty love that movieeeee! ahh

Saturday-woke up. went to Neil's. came home. made mac&cheese :-) and tanned outside like all day. then my mom came picked us up got ice cream. then last minute plans went to Chelsea's cottage! it was awesome. we got there at like 4:30 and swimmed like allll night. then we went tubbing :-) that was soo awesome! my sister flew off and did liek 2 cartwheels into the water! i was like omg is she okay, but i was lmao! then i went on and i was like i hope i don't fly off! and i didn't :-) me and Victoria were holding on as hard as we can! lol after that went up to the hot tub sat there for a while, got ice cream, ate dinner, then set off fireworks!! they were huge! it was awesome. we had people all on the lake watching them. people were cheering and everything i was liek yeah thats right we are awesome. everyone was liek shut up! then we were in the water at liek 10. then we played 'Bullshit'. aweeeeeesome. then we went home around 10:30. got home at 11:30 and went to bed.

Today-woke up at like 10. got ready. went to the mall. got this cute shirt and some black pants for going out to nice places since i don't wear like skirts or dresses..hey at least its dressy :-D lol came home and went to my nonna's..well actually i wanted to go to Korri's but my dad wouldn't let me soo i yelled and got in trouble lol so i was in my room for 2 hours before we left hehe i'm soo bad. ate a lot and came home. soo tomorrow is camp and soccer practice stuff..soo its all good.
-last week of camp! THANK THE LORD!! yayy :-) gunna miss like Scott, Gio, n Jason but whatever see them next year, and i see Jason like random places soo whatever lol

well i'll update someother time<3

Brendan I Love You So Much, My Everything<3

ThEy'LL fInD yOu..

2004-07-29T19:26:38Z

today is really hot.. :-\

went to camp today. and it was hot. we went to a Rock Cats game. it was fun! me and Katie were like screaming, then it got hot. i saw Brendan :-D he was like way above us but at least i saw him then when he was getting something to eat i saw him hehe. then after that we were sitting down and my ass was like BURNING the seats were soo hot. then i poured water on Lee :-) hehe soo evil then he got me back.

tonight i got more practice for soccer with Alex, thats alright. i think Marissa is coming too.

Friday-camp ITALIAN LUNCHEON!! yayy! i <3 italian food! then i think K.kOsT's for the night w/ Korri or just me. gotta talk to that girl<3

well i'll update later

heres a quote of the day..
' love isn't always the answer, you don't always need it, you don't always have it.'
-The Words Of...MEEEEEE! :-D

Brendan I Love You<3

ahh

2004-07-27T22:08:25Z

KORRI AND BRENDAN ARE BACK! YAYYYYYYYY!<3333

soo happpyyyyy!! :-D

I LOVE YOU GUYSSS<3

Korri my bffenenenennenene<3
Brendan I Love You :-)

KASIA I MISS YOU BABES!!!

I gOt mY fInGeR oN tHe TriGgEr AnD yOuR iN mY wAy..!!

2004-07-26T21:50:12Z

well i'm bored once again. went to camp today. it was okay. im really bored soo here are some poems that i picked some are new and some are old.

Brendan I Love You Babe<3

These are some old poems i wrote, not to long ago, but never showed them to anyone<3

The Color Pink, It Means Something, Romance.
as the sun goes down
the sky turns pink
ohhh how romantic
watching the fireflys
as they glow in the dark
wishing you can be here
to share a moment with me
kiss my soft lips
and just once more
hold me close again and again
without the intention of letting go
letting me fall out of love

it's the way you make me love you
that makes me not want to let go
i love you now
i can never get you
out of my head
i think i've fallen

please come watch the pink sky with me
watch it as my heart burns
as you look into my eyes and kiss me

Sympathy Love Song
hear the song of the crickets
playing their sweet, soft song
the song of sorrow, letting go
moving on finding new people
heart is bruised and broken
wish someone could come save you
put you on a white horse
and replace your heart with burning feelings
i'm a sucker for a fairytail
but my heart is still bruised
almost back together
from being broken
laying outside
singing to the sad melody the crickets play
wishing her prince would come one day
save her from this nightmare
take her away from pain
put her back together
no bandaids, or neosporin
only delicate love is allowed
in her emotional heart, mind body and soul
that sings to the sad song, of being put back together.

His Kiss.
with each and every kiss
i get closer and closer
i can hear your heart beating
we're sitting outside
looking up at the moon
it shines like your eyes in the night
the stars glissin as soft as music plays
your wrap me in your arms
not letting me go
just take me away with your kiss
when your lips touch mine
my heart stops
i'm in a paradise
i don't care
what people think
or what they say
i love you baby
no one can change that.

Putting Myself Back Together, Takes Time.
you've gone away
let go of my hand
left the moment
made me fall forever
when you came back
picked me up off the floor
took me to the top of a building
look at the summer stars
they shine forever

that day you dropped me
i shattered all over the floor
like a falling glass
the stars fall to the ground
clatter as they colaspe
i shout out your name
you don't return the screams
i guess you don't want me anymore
so now, as the days go by
i put myself back together

HERE ARE NEW POEMS!!

In Your Eyes It's Right, In Mine You Just See Tears Of Jeleasy & Fear.
so many things wrong
going on in my life
it's all because you left
if you just come back
it woudl all be right
you would be in my arms
be kissing me in the moonlight
but you left, and everything i see in my eyes
is not suposed to be
it's wrong, not right
i'm alone in my room
writing these poems
white your in another girls arms
kissing her soft lips
this is not right
we were meant to be
now i only have 3 things to say to you
i will wait forever for you to come back
i want you back
my touch & lips are softer than hers
have a great life, and do me a favor
make my life great too, make it right.

I Don't Know What To Think.
when i first met you
i thought you were the best
charming and sweet
always caring, having fun
then i found out
you messed up your life
drinkin your problems away
puffin away your stress
i wish i'd never met you
your a liar and a touch overrated
so go have fun lush
forget about me
about what i said
what we had
just forget me
its that simple.

Miss Invisable.
i glance stares at you
i wonder if you notice
or even know who i am
to you i'm probably
miss invisable
don't you see my heart
beating out on the floor
my tears falling from my eyes
i guess you dont
i'm just miss invisable to you.

(short but good :-])

thats all fokes<3

i'M dRuNk oFf yOuR kIsS..<3

2004-07-26T01:27:46Z

went to see a cinderella story today with Katie Babie :-) that was fun. we got there a lil early so we went to Dots then a lil candy shop thing. so she put the bag in her purse. then we start talking about how ppl hide stuff, katie was like yeah if he asked us what in the bag, then i inturrupted and was like weeeeeeed! lmao it was the funniest thing ever! then we went to the movie and went to the bathroom and katie was fooling with the bag i was i told you to hide the weed better! lmao i told you, you can't just roll a blunt and save it for later its either do it now or do it later! great times katie great times<3 well the movie was good i loved it!

after movie went to Katie's and went on a walk. talked about like drinking and smoking and highschool...smoking is bad. bad bad bad!

then we went to liv's for a get together thing. so we were also talkin about like drinking and stuff like in highschool KEG PARTIES! lmao ohh jeez i love these girls!

came home, makin plans with Kosty and plans for the future with Liv and Katie lmao! ohh jeez i love you guys<3

well i'm out pCe--Bren I Love You So Much<3

Cape Cod Bitch...

2004-07-24T20:31:08Z

its great to be back. im bored off my ass though. it was soo nice in Cape Cod now when im back its shitty out. god damn. well heres my week and some poems i wrote<3

on saturday got up at 6:45! and went to the cape cod which takes like 4 hours! ugh finally got there with my aunt uncle and 2 cousins sebby and anthony. we went to the beach then cam eback got readya nd went out to dinner. that night at liek 11 we made magaritas! i made some of mine and they were good.

sunday-woke up got ready beach time baby!! it got cloudy on the ocean side where we were and it was soo cold! so i had to move so me and my dad went on a walk! we saw surfer people! they were awesomeeee! lol then we must of walked close to a birds nest so they came after us not leaving us alone for like 10 minutes. it was the funniest thing! my uncle saved some little kid from getting pulled out and crashed by waves, he saved him! lol then we came home, i called Brendan but no one answered. at like midnight me my mom and my aunt made, midnight magaritas!! yayy!!!!

monday- went to Ptown. omg there are a lot of gay ppl there!! well i wanted to get my cartilage done. i went to everyplace i could think of and they wouldn't let me! i was pissssed! so i got an etnies shirt instead. its sexy ;-] we went home had dinner. then my aunt and uncle and cousins left..i called Brendan he wasn't home, but Jess picked up so i talked to her and told her about how my week was going and how bored i was lol. and telling her about my magarita times haha. after we hung up i got ready and we went to chatam. i got a book and i went to this cd place..it was okay. then i went home and went to bed becuase i was bored and tired.

tuesday-went to the beach. a lot of horseflys there! it was like one of the first time i went in the water since we have been in Cape Cod. i was always tanning. it was warm water! after the beach went to a chatam baseball game. met some ppl there. their names were brendan Matt and Sarah. Brendan looked like my boyfriend Brendan. he had long hair and the same color! he skateboarded and he had the same color eyes! we hung out for the game then i went home.

wednesday- beach, once again! by this time i was getting soo sick of the beach! i was bored and tired. i got sunburned on my tummy and it hurt :[ went home got ready. i talked to Brendan!! yayyy! i was happy to hear him since i hadn't talked to since like Thursday! siggh.after that went minigolfing with my dad and sister. I WON!! yayyyy! haha

thursday-beach beach beach UGH. met this girl Bre she was nice. left the beach and went back to P-town. i got 2 rings and my mom got belly rings. omg there was this gay guy dresses up at Cher and he was in see through fish nets had a thong on and was on a motor scooter going back and forth..i was like wow thats scary. the only thing that was covering him was a 5 row huge ass studded belt. that was the scariest gaything i have seen a gay man do other than that, gay men are funny. that night we went to Ciro and Sal's great italian returant! i loved it!

firday- packing, beach packing. i got bit by a fucking crab on my foot :[ i hate crabs soo i'm gunna eat them! DIE CRABS DIE! lol

saturday-HOME SWEET HOME

here are the poems..

Home
the ocean breeze
in my hair
sun glaring in my hair
eyes twinkling as it shines
i dig my feet into the hot sand
singing our favorite song
wishin you were here to sing it with me

sitting on a blanket
late night on the beach
all by myself
lookin at the moon
knowing that your looking at it too
that starts light up the night sky
i wish you were here

looking in the mirrior
make-up on, ready to go
baby, i'm comin home
i missed you lots
i just wonder did you miss me too?
well i can't wait
till i look into your eyes again
kiss you lips
feel your touch

it was too long
i felt so alone
for a short time
being there without you
some times would call you up
"i miss you. i miss you so"
thats all i wanted you to know
with you there
it just stoped my heart..

but i'm coming back
i could sleep knowing that you love,
that you missed me
my heart will be beating with your again
sing our songs together again
hold me tight and look at the summer stars together
and kiss me in the moonlight
i'm so glad to be home.

Somone New Should Save Me...

standin ouside your window
singing our faovirite songs
we used to always listen to
i always wanted someone like you

then it fell apart
you left my heat
to crumble to the ground
pieces that could never be
put back together

when i meet someone new
i hope their not like you, a touch overatted
i never knew that you can be this hated..

so now i stand alone
picking up pieces of my heart
waiting for the one
to save me from this nightmare..
just put me back together
save me..

'Breathless'

when i first met you
i looked into your eyes
they left me totally breathless..
it's like i was in a day dream
my words couldn't come out
i was flosting around you
hearts in my eyes

now were togehter
may not be forever
but its a dream come true
for now..

love at first sight
just from lookin your eyes
lost in a papdise
i never want to let you go
i love you so...
ever since that day
i looked into your eyes
and you left me, breathless.

abandonedxdream @ 2004-07-24T16:04:00

2004-07-24T20:06:28Z

1. hair color- dark
2. eye color- brown or blue
3. height- taller than me
4. six pack- would be nice..
5. long or short hair- doesn't matter, i prefer long
6. glasses- dont care
7. scars- sure
9. eyebrows- no unibrowsss!
10. big butt or little- not tooo big lol
11. chest hair- no thanks
12. buff or skinny- not too skinny .
13. straight teeth, gap, or braces- straight
14. funny or serious- both, only serious when he wants
15. party or stay at home- party and stay at home
16. should he cook or bake- cook
17. should he have a best friend- yes
18. should he have a lotta girlfriends-  ehhh
19. outgoing or shy- outgoing
20. sarcastic or sincere- both
21. should he love his mother? yes!!
22. should he watch chick flicks? yes lol
23. would he be a smoker? i dont care
24. would he drink? sure
25. would he swear? i do so what the fuck lol
26. would he play with ur hair? yes!! :)
27. one or more girls at a time? no
28. would he pay for dates?  not allll the time
29. does he kiss on the first date? yes
30. where would you go to dinner? an italian place
31. would he bring you flowers? only if its a special occasion
32. would he lay under the stars with you? yes =)
33. would he write poetry about you? if it isnt corny
34. would he call you hunny, sweetie, or baby? baby
35. would he hang out with you and YOUR friends? not all the time
36. would you hang out with him and HIS friends? yes
37. will he walk you to the door at the end?- yes
38. holding hands?-  yes =)
39. soccer – yes
40. baseball -  yes
41. basketball – no
42. football – yes
43. tennis- no
44. surf – yes .
45. skateboard – yes
46. snowboard-   yes
47. sing -   ummm.
48. play guitar -   yes =)
49. play piano - no
50. play drums - sure
51. clean his room - i don't care
52. paint, draw, sculpt no
53. writes his own music -   yes =)
54. use the word dude? not all the time
55. use the word tight? NO!!!!!
56. would he watch the sun rise with you? if i'm up that early..
57. what kind of car does he drive? i dont care
58. how old is he? older than me
59. what would his name be? doesnt matter

16, lmao!

2004-07-17T02:16:06Z

okay well today, went to camp, then Farm Hill with Marissa sarah neil and danny. me and danny left to find ppl, went to rai's house, then went to see if Brendan was home. and of coarse he wasn't. later got ready scrunched my hair went to the movies..

saw spiderman 2 awesome movie!!

okay well after, this kid came up to me marissa and sarah..
they walked away and he started talking to me.

he was like where you from? i was like cromwell. he was liek what highschool. i was like i'm not in school he was like fo reall i'm was like yeah i'm in 8th grade. he was like shit you 16! he was liek you gotta a bed, i was like yeah but not for you! lmao ohh jeez

good times guys good times<3

goin to the Cape tomorrow, be back next Saturday<3

update and tell you all about it<3

Kosty if you read this..when your up there call 860-604-1577
were staying in Brewster..gimme a call<3

Brendan I Love You..

thnx for saying bye.

UnLeSs It FeLLs So RiGhT..

2004-07-15T12:25:18Z

Tuesday-was me and Brendan's 4 months for bein togheter :-D he came over. we just madeout a few times went online and listened to music. he went home around 7:30,

Wednesday-went to camp. it was really boring we had to play basketball and me and Sarah we're soooo good! lmao jk. we all sucked. i went home then went up TO Chris's house to get the cKy cd and Warped Tour 2003 Stage 1 cd. then i went to my nonna's and ate fooooooood :-)

Thursday- another boring day at camp. tonight might go shopping or maybe go to the Y with Marissa to see Shawn or something. whateverrrrrr!

update later..

2 days untill Cape Cod :-(

Brendan I Love You<3

WaStInG aLL hEr LoNeLy TeArS tOnIgHt..<3

2004-07-12T19:52:36Z

today skipped camp :-D

talked to Mrs. Behmfor a long time lol about random stuff. lol she's cool. talked to Jess on the phone. just did nothing today. was soo bored!!

tomorrow camp.
the next day, camp.
camp camp camp! thats all i ever do!

Corey left for Alaska today :-( sniff i'm gunna miss her!

I TALKED TO KASIA TODAY! omg do i miss her a lot! i caught her up on stuff and she sent me mail i think. lol

well i'm going to get ready at 4 in the afternoon becuase i'm not dressed i'm in my pajama's still :-)

update later<3

1 day=4 months<3
6 days=Cape Cod :-\

Brendan<3

YoU mAkE mE fEeL wHoLe AgAiN<3

2004-07-11T16:59:37Z

just got home from Kahley's. went out wtih my daddy!! he took my drivinggggggg :-D i was good hehe. anyways last night was Kahley's party. it was awesome we had water ballon fightsss. then we were all chilen around. me and Brendan were in the hamic thing haha then everyone else was around. then Kelly came late and everything so whateverrrrr then we watched HOney then went to bed and shit. then we woke up and watched American Pie 2. then i left and i'm here

July 10th--funny ass times
-the people in the woods (Wes Tay & Lex) scaring the shitt outta us! lmao
-the kid playing kickball running past the base to who knows where the fuck where! haha the cake fight :-X lmao the pizza hut guy "ohh shitt!" lmao!
-Brendan like almost knocking Taylor over hitting her in the face with his sholder..lmao
-Eddie and his dance..aye
-Kristen and her candy
-the candy cigarettes tryin to get them to work
-"shit"..enough said there.
-someone up in Kahley's room farting really really really bad.
-me and Kristen in the same bed. lmao
-telling people their bi
-me and Kristen spilling the water :-D lmao
-me almost falling off the bed at 7 in the fucking morning >:-O
breakfast :-)
-American Pie 2--nasty ass movie! lmao
-Tony Hawk Pro Skater 3-i'm soo good :-)
-Kelly and her phone.

soo much more<3 Love You Guys
party peeps-Me.kF.kK.tB.aF.kF.bB<3.bP.eP.wR.
The Girls-me.kF.kK.tB.aF.Kf--funny times last night<3

getting my hair cut tonight :-D
FINALLYYYYY!

7 More Days Till Cape Cod .::sigghh::.
..someone save me..please.

Brendan I Love You<3
2 more days --4 months--

-Ryssie

tired, really tired.

2004-07-08T12:30:57Z

for the past 3 days i haven't been falling asleep till like 5 in the morning for no reason, and i wake up at like 7. so i'm really tired and not myself. and yeah.

yesterday i went to The Lake with camp. i went on the zoomerang 3 times! downtime once, and other things! it was fun :-)

i need moneyyyyyyyyyyy! lol wow.

well anyways i'm bored in like a few minutes goin to camp
:-\ sigh whatever

<3Ryssie

Drama. ughh

2004-07-07T23:39:44Z

(Liv looked in my profiel sent me my quote)
LiviDee6: -Drama, it [[ never ]] ends..
LiviDee6: WORD TO THAT
x0xRySsIe313x0x: lol
LiviDee6: lol
x0xRySsIe313x0x: a world without drama is a perfect life..haha guess none of us have that shitt..
LiviDee6: lmao! for real

it's soo true. that is the quote of the day

'..a world without drama is a perfect life, no one has that..'

SuRvEy..

2004-07-04T18:58:54Z

heres a survey

the usual.
name: *Marisa Musumeci*
female or male: female
birthday: November 18th 1991
color eyes: blue & green
where do you live now: Middletown CT
aqe: *12*

what you're doinq now.
listening to: CO&CA -Delirium Trigger-
looking at: computer screen
eatinq or drinking: water
wearing: shorts & cami
talking to anyone: yah
are you online: yah
are you on the phone: nope
your mood and why: bored becuase no ones home.

favorites.
color: red black blue pink
number: 15
food: any kind of italian food
song: anything by Brand New
show: i dunno..
animal: cat
drink: water or pepsi
snack: cookies n milk
dessert: don't kno
store: PacSun
childhood toy: mu stuffed animals!
person: idk
eye color: blue
car: 1970 Boss 302 Mustang
salad dressinq: italian of course

your bedroom.
bed size: twin
describe your bed spread: blue w/ yellow flowers
color of your walls: blue
have a tv: no
have a radio: yeah
stuffed animals on your bed: a lot..
how many pillows: 5
do you like your bedroom: yeahhhh
do you have a biq closet: its a good enough size
what position are you in when you first qo to sleep: on my stomache
what position are you in when you first wake up: on my back or on my my side
is your bed comfortable: yaaaaahhh =] i love it
what's under your bed: shoe boxes of notes and poems
favorite thinq about your room: umm..idk

this or that.
coke or pepsi: pepsi
mcdonald's or wendy's: mcdonalds
tv or radio: radio
car or truck: car
zebra or giraffe: umm both?
penquin or dolphin: penguin
tea & water or soda: just water
hamburqer or hot doq: umm hmm...i like both
britney or christina: christina
brad pitt or ashton kutcher: ashton
real world or road rules: real world
rap or rock: rock
colored or black and white pictures: both lol black and white pictures are fun because there all old but colored pictures are all like pretty
scary or comedy movies: SCARY!!
suqar or spice: sugar
unicorns or fairies: um..fairies?
real qhost or imaqination: real ghost
toes or finqers: both!
hard bed or soft bed: medium

first thinq that comes to mind.
mules: wings
blinkinq liqhts: cars
fat people: Robin Squriell
britney's boobs: fake haha
outkast: ew.
the dentist: i dunno..

what do you think of when you hear these names:
joey: kangaroo
amy: i dunno
jill: jack and jill
bart: simpson
herald: fat dude in hey arnold
bob: MR CHASE!!
jack: cool dude
muhammad: will smith
jennifer: lopez
kevin: Raianne's boyfrienddd!
tom: from Blink 182
lindsay: My sister..eh
phil: SILVERIOOOO!
lisa: chamberland.

your childhood.
did you always qet your way: yup. :-D
did you have any pets: a cat..a dog, a bird
your favorite toy: stuffed animals..
least favorite toy: this elephant that made noise and it scared me!
GI joes or barbies: barbies
did you wear underwear with the days of the week on them: no lol
did you think there were monsters in your closet or under your bed: no but i thought chucky was outside my window
did you turn off the liqht and jump in your bed so nothinq would qet you: YEAHH!! haa
were you scared of the dark: yah
did you have boyfriends/qirlfriends: nooo..
favorite friend when you were little: Kasia..we'ere still friends and Carissa
did you qo to the zoo or the circus: nope.
did you think ninja turtles really lived in the sewer: no..
did you build snowmen: yah!
did you have really bad hair cuts: no my hair was always long when i was little

random.
if a fat person knocked you over what would you do next: idk..
wasn't the pink power ranqer awesome: YEAH!! me n my sister used to fight over who would be her when we were little haha
what's the weirdest dream you've ever had: ive had lots of weird dreams
ever seen a qhost: no
what are you scared of: SPIDERS!
do you have a disposal in your kitchen: yeah
what's your qreat qrandmother's name: Carmella Marie Musumeci
what do you wish you were doinq now: sleeping
future kid's names: Anthony and Sebastiana
how do you control your anqer: i dont control my anger most of the time
how do you relieve your stress: idk..
do you workout: yeah
cuss: yah
drink: no
smoke: no
are you a stronq person: i guess
do you like to burn candles: yesssssss
how many candles are in your room: 4
what's your dream car: any kind of Mustang
what do you wish your room looked like: i want it red..but its blue
how many liqhts are in your house: alot
how many phones are in your house: 5
ever been to a tim mcqraw concert: nooooo
what about britney or christina: nope.
what about backstreet boys or nsync: nope

i SwEaR i KnEw It aLL aLoNg<3

2004-07-03T17:55:31Z

okayyy well last night was Loli's party. OMG it was soo fun! i got there a lil later lol. soo we were doin dances and cheers. then we had pizza and we opened presents for Loli :-) then we went outside and did FIREWORKSSS!!! hahaha we did a little dance around the firework thing and Taylor almost got hit she was soo close to one lol it was weird. then we watch 'The Shing'..the movie scared the shitt outta me! Raianne was holsing on to my foot. there were these parts that reminded me of a slipknot video!! i was like ahhhhh!!! it was weird. then me n Raianne were saying 'REDRUM REDRUM' over and over then we noticed it spells MURDER backwards..we were like ahhhhhhh! HERE'S JOHNNYYYYYYYYY! lmaooooo! that was the funniest thing. after the movie we watched tv till like 2 and we did makeovers for ppl. and i got my hair corn-rolled! it looked soooo cool. i'll put them up here is i find out how to do it lol and when i get the pictures from Loli lol then i went to bed at 2:30 and then at like 5 in the morning Sarah like jumped on me and i started laughing..they thought i wasn't up up but i started lmao and they didn't kno i was up..it was funny. then i went back to sleep and woke up at 10. and this is what they did while i was sleeping..

Truth Or Dare..
"im not sticking my tounge in sumones belly button!!"...loli kissd sarahs ass!.. olivia and katie pulled spoons outta each others cleavage..and other stuff i an't remember..but it was fun..

saoo now im in a bitchy cranky mood :-) and Raianne is coming over we're gunna swim and tan and do studff and she's sleeping over :-D i love my cuzzieeee!

then ppl's are coming over alter for a lil 4rh of July party!!

ThE wOrDs yOu sCiBBLeD oN tHe WaLLs Of ThE LoSe Of FrIeNdS yOu DiDnT HaVe..

2004-06-29T01:37:48Z

today was boring. we had camp. its okay..activites and stuff. after that came home ate and went to Brendan's baseball game with Raianne. we sat on the ground lol. she told me about her bad day :-( its sooo sad lol i lost a pen she gave me >:-O i was sooooo madddd! lmao! then my dad n family went out to eat so me n Raianne had to walk home to my house instead of gettting picked up! we had to walk the long way beuae trees were in the way of going up the hill for a shortcut!! ughh so we walked alllllllllllll the way around i was soo anoyed. then rai's mom picked us up 3/4 of the way lol. then my parents were'nt home and i didnt have a key to get in so we were waiting for like 15 minutes for them to come home! i was like OMGGGG!! aye i am not pacient at all. i was like mingya.

Me n Rai we're doing cheers on the way home lol we were bored. i wanted italian ice. and me n her were says 'mitsa migata mingya' lol like really loud. lol we're weird i love her tho!!

well i'm going pCe<3

I Love You Brendan Babyyy<3 MuAh :-*

--a talk with mother dearest..Mrs. Behm :-D

2004-06-27T14:31:53Z

this is me n Brendan's mom conversation the morning of his birthday..

abandOnedXdrEam5: happy birthdayyyyyy!:-D
xRANCID x 235: sry hun its his mom the comp is messed up so i tried to sign him on again birthday boy is still sleepin
abandOnedXdrEam5: haha lol okay..
xRANCID x 235: :-\
abandOnedXdrEam5: :-\ lol
xRANCID x 235: hahah i wanna give him his gifts...
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol what did you get him>
abandOnedXdrEam5: *?
xRANCID x 235: um a nice paintball gun, and some clothes
xRANCID x 235: i should say an expensive paintball gun
xRANCID x 235: i dont now if its nice its just a gun to me
abandOnedXdrEam5: icic..lol expensive..yah i kno i'm not into paintball stuff..lol

i still gotta get him something:-X lol i think i'll get him something when i go up to Cape Cod and i have money:-D
xRANCID x 235: hah
xRANCID x 235: when are you going
abandOnedXdrEam5: in like 3 weeks..lol late birthday present!
xRANCID x 235: ooo thats nice i would really like to go i want to go away soooo bad
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol i wanna get outta my house today! lol..my parents are repainting like everyting in this house!! and my dad woke me up soo early becuase he was doing something in their room which was right next to mine i was like ughhh i wanna sleep!!
xRANCID x 235: you should bring a couple of friends over later
xRANCID x 235: come to the bithday bash:-\
xRANCID x 235: omg the thought of all boys here
abandOnedXdrEam5: haha..
abandOnedXdrEam5: ohh is Matt back from Cali yet? cause i feel bad for Jess that she has all the boys there and stuff haha
xRANCID x 235: hahahah
xRANCID x 235: no hes been back since thurs
xRANCID x 235: jess gets along with all his friends tho
xRANCID x 235: so she doesnt really mind
abandOnedXdrEam5: yeah..lol
xRANCID x 235: shes nice to everybody
abandOnedXdrEam5: ohh you kno Phil and Pattie Silverio right?
xRANCID x 235: yea i do
xRANCID x 235: i like them
abandOnedXdrEam5: they said ehy and how you doin? i was over there last night with my family! they said our families allllll have to get together in the summer since all the parents kno eachother! lol
abandOnedXdrEam5: *hey
xRANCID x 235: that would be fun
xRANCID x 235: they are all fun ppl
xRANCID x 235: i dont kno your mom
xRANCID x 235: was she from middletown?
abandOnedXdrEam5: nooo thats why you dont kno her..lol
xRANCID x 235: o icic
abandOnedXdrEam5: but she knows most of my dady's friends from when he was little
xRANCID x 235: o really
xRANCID x 235: i knew your uncle tommy
abandOnedXdrEam5: yeah..b/c he used to work on ur mom and dads cars right?
xRANCID x 235: and when he was mariried to dorie
abandOnedXdrEam5: ohh jeez..dont bring her up..:-\never see Tanisha..its a shame
xRANCID x 235: yea he did thats funn y
xRANCID x 235: whos that
abandOnedXdrEam5: his daughter..
xRANCID x 235: ooooooo
xRANCID x 235: she must be old now right?
abandOnedXdrEam5: yeah..19..
xRANCID x 235: wow
abandOnedXdrEam5: she never visits us or anything..
xRANCID x 235: didi u like "aunty Dorie"/
abandOnedXdrEam5: can't say i do can't say i dont..just from what i hear..they dont sound too good..but i cant really say anything you know?
xRANCID x 235: they went out for a reallllllllllll long time they were young
abandOnedXdrEam5: i kno..
xRANCID x 235 signed off at 10:17:40 AM.
xRANCID x235 signed on at 10:18:24 AM.
xRANCID x 235: this compis so messed up
xRANCID x 235: i thionk it really has a virus
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol mine is too..we have toooo much stuff on ours b/c of all my music i download:-D haha
abandOnedXdrEam5: i dont think we have a virus tho..lol
xRANCID x 235: thats prob what it is
xRANCID x 235: i thionk we deff do
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: thinl
xRANCID x 235: think
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: Puttineedabaffyo
xRANCID x 235: whos that
abandOnedXdrEam5: i dunno?
xRANCID x 235: o man they just imed bren
abandOnedXdrEam5: hold on..i'll see who it is
abandOnedXdrEam5: i dunno..just say this isnt him dont im me again lol
xRANCID x 235: hahah hell get mad at me
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: when he knos im talkin to you hell prob be like...o god
xRANCID x 235: he doesnt trust me
abandOnedXdrEam5: don't tell him i was talkin to you..he'll be like why are you talking to my mom blah blah?! i would be like ur mom is nice and i could talk to her if i want :-Dlol
xRANCID x 235: hahah
xRANCID x 235: i always talk to jess's friends
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: that all i have on my bl
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: poor me i have none of my own friends
xRANCID x 235: :'(
abandOnedXdrEam5: sniff sniff..
xRANCID x 235: hahahah
xRANCID x 235: my friends are too old and boring
xRANCID x 235: o i hear upstairs activity
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: is it bday boy?
abandOnedXdrEam5: i dunno is it?!
xRANCID x 235: yup
abandOnedXdrEam5: haha
xRANCID x 235: o god
abandOnedXdrEam5: ut ohh
xRANCID x 235: im in trouble
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: but come over later for his bday
abandOnedXdrEam5: okay i'll see what my rents are doing or something then i'll call later
abandOnedXdrEam5: lol
xRANCID x 235: ok bye bye
abandOnedXdrEam5: byeeee!
xRANCID x 235 is away at 10:24:28 AM.

lol <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDANNNNNNNNN!!!!!

--->@ pHiL's

2004-06-27T00:37:36Z

At Phil's house...like sooooooo bored. Phil and his girlfriend Sarah went to the movies. I've been tryin to get a hold of Cait B. who is out with her sister..trying to get her ass over here so i won't be bored!!!! lol

soo i waws hanging with the adults and shitt had a drink of my mommy's margarita :-) thats good. lol we talked about who i knew that Phil's parens would know, i was like you probably know Jess and Brendan Behm! They were like OMGGGGGGG! they are the nicest family! They were like how do you kno them..my mom was liek her boyfriend is Brendan. They start laughing i was like shuttttt up. Then we got into the conversation on how Phil, my dad, and Brendan's mom would hang out when they were in highschool. aye i hate those stories. lol, but they were suprised i kno allllll these people that Phil knows. lol i kno Cait B. Chelsey Deebs AnDy Wes Matt Sweeney Jess Matt just like all these people. Then someone said one of them smokes i forgot who they said. My mom was like YOUR HANGING AROUND POT HEADS?! i was like OMG i was like i know them i don't hang out with them! she got all like whoa.

Soo we ate and the dog kept jumoin on my soo i was like GET THE FUCK OFF of me!! lol so now i'm upstairs on Phil and Pattie's computer trying to see whos on. cheap quickbuddy can't even tell you whos away and who isnt. jeez

well i'm going to go down stairs and see how drunk they are..and see if they say anything stupid but funny :-) i'll update later

ohh yeah and about horseback riding was awesome! :-D and Noah i didn't fall off. i'm good at it.

Stevie is the coolest kid ever!!!! :-)

Brendan I Love You Babes :-* <333

iS aNyBoDy ThErE..?

2004-06-26T13:44:38Z

havent updated in a while. well.....

Thursday-did nothing really..my sister had a soccer game so me liv n chico and her frend Christina who is awesomely cool lol hung out there. then after that my family had a party for the soccer season ending thank god! at like 4 i went to bed. i was listening to music and writing allll night.

Friday-my uncle took out his mustang!! :-P its soo awesome! i got to drive it a lil! from my grandma's to his house hehe i didnt crash! i'm soooo good! lol then he brought me to Farm Hill haha! at Farm Hill was me Taylor Loli Bren Sean Neil Nikki Liv & Chris. it was boring..soo me n Taylor went to her house so she could change. then we went back up to Farm Hill and then we got bored soo Brendan and Sean were going home and i was going to Rai's house so i was liek i'll go with you guys. soo 3/4 of the way..i had to walk by myself
:-( not fun at all. so i went to rai's had pizza and yogurt and watched the rest of Passions with her :-) SHES A WALKING DISASTER! lmao! ohh jeez. then me n Raianne were listening to Nsync. lol brings back memories..lol. around 5ish my dad picked us up and we went to Kevin's and Brendan's game. lol it started to rain so we sat in Kevin's car with Noah talking about random stuff that came to mind. lol then it ended and Rai's mom picked us up and i came home and went to bed around 10ish

today i'm going horseback riding with my Aunt..lol then maybe shopping :-) then later on tonight going to The Silverio's Household for dinner and a get together. lol i get to see Phil. lol and me n Cait might get togheter around 7ish i havent seen her in the longest time and i wanna see her :-) lol soo i'l update later about my horseback riding..lol lets see how that goes. lol

Tomorrow's Brendan's Birthday :-) happy early birthday baby! <333
I Love Him :-) <3

-Ryssie

DiD yOu HeAr It'S aLL mY fAuLt AgAiN?

2004-06-23T15:37:36Z

its really hot out today. lol there's nothing to do and no one to hang out with. i was sitting outside for like a half hour then got bored. lol i got stung by a bee on my foot :-( its not cool. called ppl to see what they are doing. they are all doing nothing and have no rides! aye. if my dad didn't have his surgery on his arm he would drive me there pick them up then come back but of course he can't. ugh. gotta a game tonight at 7. really don't wanna go. but thank god its our last one :-D lol well i'll update later. im going around or something i donno.

brendan<3

i ThInK aBoUt yOuR fAcE..aNd HoW i FaLL iNtO yOuR eYeS<3

2004-06-22T21:39:42Z

okay. last night slept over Korri's house! it was soo fun! we stayed up till' like 4:30 looking at the year book picking out who she should go out wtih or who's not a virgin! lol we're soo dumb. then we watched tv listened to music. mostly just talked about what were gunna do when we get older and stuff and all that. whats gunna happen during 8th grade. then finally we went to bed. lol Korri jumped on me before we went to bed and it was soo funny!

Today we went to the dentist..well Korri did..i didn't. and her dentist asked her if she was pregnet and Korri said yeah being sarcastic and she believed her! lol i was laughing. then this old lady cept staring at me..i was scared! lol so after that we went to the twins house?! it was soooo fun! we went in the pool and the slip and slide thing. we tried to get Daniel, Chris, Joe Razzano, and Louie and Andrew outside to play with us but they didn't. Those lazy bums! lol then Kasia was sooo late. so when she came me n Korri picked her up and trew her in the pool. she was soooooo cold. then we were doing water baloon stuff. then we went in Christina's nonna's house. OMG that is such a big ass house and it's soooo european and beatiful i loved it lol. then we went outside on the electric scooter..and the go cart! omg it was awesome!!!! Adriana doesn't pay attention when shes driving and almost crashes her and Olivia Carey into a tree! then Sabrina goes soo fucking fast! its sooo fun though! then i saw my Uncle David w/ their neighboors becuase they own a buisness together lol so i said hi then bye and went on the go cart before i left! and the twins are playing in our last soccer game tomorrow! YaY!!! lol come to our game!!

Moody School
7:00 pm! goo its our last one!

well i'l update whenever!!!!! :-P

Brendan I Love You<33 :-)

-Ryssie<3

wOrDs Of K.kOsT..yEp.

2004-06-21T16:32:11Z

words of Kosty..*
"..its worn off a little...but not much:-D.."
"..boys are stressful..they areee..i swear"
"..your on crack.." ..no i'm on weed.. "ohh yeah!!"
"it's ture..i'm telling you"
"ohh shitt fucked up again"
"don't be hatin hoes..come on now>:o"
"thats why i keep on the low..you kno?"
"if i'm smoking weed i'll keep it on the low?!"
"she aint havin good time like this bitch"
"FUCKKKK UP THE HATCH WAY!"
"ohh fuck that bitch i hate her"
"hi..whats your name? :)"
...the look..lmao!

ohh shitt..be back later biatchessssssss!

-:|:- Ryss n Kosty -:|:-

Oh ThOsE sUmMeR nIgHtS..<3

2004-06-21T14:12:14Z

The Summer Nights

we sit in the frshly cut grass
under the tree
the sun is setting in the distance
you hold me close to you
as we look up at the pink sky
while the red sun sets and
the white rose moon rises into the sky
stars shine brightly
lumerating the sky like city lights
and we sit under the tree
your still holding me close
in the darkeness of the night
crickets play the music
as we dance to the beat
forgetting about everyone, everything
our shadows turn to bright lights
shinning under the moon lite sky
as it dissapears
the red sun rises like headlights
and all the summer nights
just like this one
you held me close, close to your heart

Kellsie and 18 Wheelers dont mix well..

2004-06-21T02:27:34Z

okay. well today was Father's Day. ohh joy. my sister had a game.

me n Chico were getting so anoyed with Kellsie soo we started making fun of her when she wasnt listening..haha its soo funny.

me-CHICO! you kno what would be the funniest thing ever! if Kellsie was liek irish stepp dancing on the Portland Bridge becuase we told her to!! lmao
Chico-OMGG in the middle of the road!
me-then all of a sudden ::VAVROOMMMMMMMM:: there an 18 wheeler and she dies..LMFAO!

that would be the day. then later we went to Kellsies house ohhh how fun. i though a bad mitten racket at her..and it hit her in the head :) soo nice. lol then we made SMORES! yeahsss! they are soo good. i make them the best.

Kellsie says the stupidest jokes ever..

Olivia:Kellsie's soo anoying i could shooot her
me:well i'm gunna shoot her b4 i turn 13! THATS THIS YEAR! i'll kill her on her birthday! muhahaha

Olivia its a plan :)

don';t kno what i'm doing tomorrow..but i need to do something soo make plans Kosty! lmao<3